A few raw thoughts for you to peruse as you wish.....
Often, I'm not sure how to start...
The thing about these newsletters is that I often feel like I have to come up with something profound to share with you. I feel like you need to hear news that is exciting, news that is different, news that makes my time here seem worthwhile. But to be honest.........it is really, really, really hard to do that.
The above quote from Elisabeth Elliot couldn't be farther from the truth for my time in Africa. I think we can all agree on that! It is one of those quotes that may lead to the phrase: expect the unexpected or don't expect anything. COMPARISON.........it's bad! Another phrase that I must remind myself of almost daily: Comparison is the thief of joy. Have you heard that before? Have you lived with that mindset? It's a hard thing to live with no matter the situation. From the below picture: Which dog do you think had the most fun? Which dog was challenged the most? Maybe the big one despises being wet and dirty. Maybe the little one likes to play in mud. I think living overseas can magnify the act of comparison. You see other expats that seem to thrive. You meet someone that absorbs language like a sponge absorbs water. Or it is the opposite and you rationalize a pat on the back. You see someone that recently arrived and fumbled through a simple cultural aspect. You hear someone complain about a piece of life that you think you conquered months ago. In reality the people above may feel the same way about you. Everyday is a learning opportunity. Even after 10 months in Uganda, I feel so limited in my capabilities. There is always more to learn, especially when living in a culture that isn't your own.   
[Pictures: comparison....it's bad; finding balance; fancy food]
FINDING BALANCE
Lately it seems that life is really a balancing act. I realized this as the rains have started here. When the ground is dry, there are rocks and gravel that slide around. When the ground is soaked, it is a slippery, muddy, mess. But there is somewhere shortly after the rain, when things are just right. The water has decreased because both the sun caused it to evaporate and the ground absorbed it for nourishment. My main area of balance now is between excitement and focus. To me it seems that my trip to the states is so close when I think about how far I've come. However, I want to be present here. There is much work to be done both on the computer and in the community as I seek to build relationships. A good friend pointed out that its ok to be excited as long as one doesn't constantly live in a state of looking to the future. Eventually, I realized I can be both excited and focused. It takes some intentionality at times but it is possible. FANCY FOOD And in the end....I try to be thankful (even for small things). I'm thankful for .........friends that are talented in the kitchen. .........friends that share the product of their labour in the kitchen. .........ice cream. Being honest...it's a perk of city life. .........good coffee from Ethiopia. .........friends. .........finding a church that feels like home. .........technology that connects me to friends near and far. .........my rain coat and rain cover for my bag. Do you find yourself with a comparison mindset? What areas of life do you often compare to those around you? Are you comparing your bloopers to the highlight reel of others? How do you find and maintain balance in different areas of life, both big and small? And at the end of the day, what are the things that you are thankful for......even if they seem small. Loving thoughts, warm hugs, and much gratitude - Katherine |
